my thoughts on the grind

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about money. Why I want it. What I believe it can do for me. And honestly, whether it’s even the thing my heart is truly chasing.

When I peel back the layers, I realize something simple: I don’t actually want money for the sake of having money. What I want is the leverage it can bring. Money represents options. Freedom. Security. The ability to provide for my family and build a life that reflects the vision in my heart.

But when I think deeper, I realize it’s not really money that I want at all. It’s a cover-up for what I’m genuinely seeking on the inside. Making money and buying things feels easier to accomplish than pursuing what my soul truly desires.

If I’m honest, the things I really want can’t be measured in dollars. I want community. Love. Peace. Joy. Self-control. Wisdom. Understanding. I want to feel a little less confused and a lot more grounded. These are the things my heart longs for—but they can’t be bought.

Money can open doors, but it can’t fill the room with love. It can create opportunities, but it can’t give you purpose. It can buy a house, but it can’t build a home.

The truth is, the things I truly desire come from Yahweh. Without Him, experiencing them on earth is impossible. All the success in the world would still feel empty if my soul was starving for what only He can give.

So I want to let this reflection double as a prayer I can return to later on:

“Father, help me never lose sight of what truly matters. Remind me that love, peace, joy, wisdom, purpose, and community come from You alone. Let my pursuit of money never overshadow my pursuit of You. Thank You for Your grace and miracle-working power. Even if I don’t have it all right now, I trust that everything You’ve promised is on the way. Amen.”

I may not have it all in my hands yet, but I know that love, peace, joy, understanding, health, family, community, and purpose are already on the way. Not because I earned them, but because of God’s perfect timing and faithfulness.

Money is useful, but it’s not the destination. He is.